I hate the homophobes. I really hate them. I mean, its not like a subtle hatred, its a systemic one. I mean, I just pray for peace in my life... Ive been through so much.. suicide attempts, being thrown into a mental hospiatal, spit on, called evey kind of name in the boo.. its all just too much. I hate this world and I honestly hate being in it. I know this isnt the way a Christian should be talking, but I really don't care anymore. It's like, im sick of lies and lying.. my whole life i have wanted to help people, but now its like, I say to myself, why not just help me. I mean, im just not good at this Christanity stuff, at first when I got saved things were going well, but so much bad stuff happened after that, I just... I dunno, broke I guess. Please pray for me. -paden

Hey Buddy...

Hang in there...and know I will pray for you.  Not to many people know i am gay so I dont have to deal with what you've dealt with but know God is in control.

Email me at Lapreacherboy@comcast.net if you want to talk more.

Love, prayers and blessings,

Jim

Hang on. I went through the same vicious cycles of feeling on top of the world and feeling that God was so far away that I wondered if He even heard my prayers. Everyone goes through cycles of spiritual highs and lows, and the lows can and often do feel like hell on earth. Whatever happens, hang on. I did, and after a long and painful struggle things have begun to improve, and the highs and lows aren't nearly so extreme.

Remember that God never gives up on you.

Hi paden,

Hang on there and know that God has a plan for you & he is guiding you through this.

The world is full of sick people out there that have hate in their hearts but you can

depend on the Lord to remove any hate from your heart. I am saying this from

experience. Keep your chin up buddy and know that you will be stronger and your

testimony will be an example for others.

Tim