I'm married and feel guilty. How do you get beyond the guilt?
Guilt
- Message
I strongly recommend you get and read "Stranger At The Gate", by Mel White. This is an autobiography of a very devout Christian man, who stepped out on faith to get married, sincerely believing God would cure him of his homosexuality as a result. But these urges gnawed at him for literally decades, until finally he could take it no more. The book is readily available used online at Amazon and other reputable merchants. Once you get it, read it straight through from the start, without skipping ahead. I assure you, this will be its own reward, and "cheating" ahead will be its own punishment.
It was recommended to me by a friend at church. I ordered it online. Then I read it from the start, without "cheating" by looking ahead to the climactic parts. It's a slow long journey at first, too long to reasonably read all at one time. Getting through it will take several sittings or more. When I finally did hit the climactic "I could take it no more" part, God spoke to me with a miracle of timing. Immediately afterward, I joined the organization Mel White founded, SoulForce, and posted the details at http://www.soulforce.org/forums/showthread.php?t=6210
Unlike many books, this 'climax' is not near the end. After this initial "break", there was still a long journey for Mel White to finally complete the transformation from heterosexual marriage and the HellFire of continual ungratified desire (1 Cor. 7:9) to his quasi-marital partnership, and strong advocacy for the Gay Christian cause. At several points, he came close to committing suicide, even after the initial "break".






